12apostles

2012-02-14T07:16:00.000-08:00

I feel moody after a day of work.

Feeling moody... but I don't know the reason why? Maybe because I'm only earning $5 per hour, and then maybe, I'm realising that money is hard to earn... and the money my dad is giving me is so much that I'm starting to understand that life isn't like that. Oh, I must study hard. I wanna be somebody, earning big bucks, to be able to enjoy life, to be able to afford and not worry about not being able to financially support myself. April. I'm so scared now. At first, I was telling everyone, "I can do it! I'm mature enough to take care of myself!" but now, I don't think I can do it.

Have a nice day.

2012-02-04T06:28:00.000-08:00

You see, I have lost my passion for dramas nowadays. So when I watch Snow Queen, I felt pretty amazed by myself. I've not been watching dramas since my holidays. I swear. I mean in the past, I could had just marathon 1 drama in a few days but I don't know. I'm old, must pass this tough responsibility to the younger generation FML. I can't stand sitting in the same position nowadays. (I watch dramas on my bed. bad posture hahaha)

And I really really LOVE Hyun Bin. He is so handsome. T__T I remember watching Snow Queen years ago and I did not know that guy was Hyun Bin. So my mother and I was like, this guy very handsome *FAINT* Then, I realised this guy is Hyun Bin and it really proves that I LOVE Hyun Bin hehe. Because I love him in Kim Sam Soon too! And Snow Queen is really an emotional piece and makes me cry=( The girl is beautiful. The guy is handsome. The story is nice. It really breaks my heart to see Tae Woong (same name as Lee Seung gi in My girlfriend is a gumiho) blaming himself for the death of his friend and ruin his bright future. Nevertheless, it just shows how committed Tae Woong was to his friendship and he has a conscience. T__T

Everybody, pls watch Snow Queen again. XOXO.

2012-02-02T21:51:00.000-08:00

I'm quite sian of my life nowadays. I feel like going to school. I know I hate school but life is so meaningless without school :( No aim at all!!! LOL. Poly, WHY U NO START SCH ON FEB? Must start on April T_T Anyway, I might be going to UK for a tour!:)) So excited. I mean, YC has never been to UK before ok!!! hehehe :D

Btw, I'm quite excited for my biomedical course and saw some biomedical peeps in twitter :O Should I add them? LOL. Yunno, cos I read meatpao's post and felt motivated to go and make new friends before sch hehe. Anyway meatpao is funny and lame, like kennysia. Evil sense of humor HAHA.

2012-02-01T02:34:00.001-08:00

NVM. LIFE GOES ON.

Dedicated to my father

2012-01-29T09:28:00.000-08:00

Ok today I will be dedicating a blog post to my father. This is damn rare because you don't really see me appreciate something that much to the extent that I will specially dedicate a blog post ya.

This blog post is perhaps, maybe to remind me the process of my education journey and if one day, I argued with my dad or what, I must appreciate his kindness to bring me to overseas.

Firstly, I gotta say that for this 2 days, I don't feel like going overseas. I felt like doing my A-levels instead. LOL. I know hahaha. I would love to go overseas too but... my law foundation course is gonna start in September so I'm pretty worried that I will do badly... and end up with nothing. Really feels shitty ok. In fact, I don't know if I'm prepared enough to live on my own in a hostel. I DON'T KNOW A SINGLE THING ABOUT COOKING. I can cook rice but I cannot cook more than 2 dish. T__T" I can cook eggs and vegetable. #sadlife

So instead of encouraging me himself, my dad got his friends to talk to me. And all his friends are sibei dua pai. More dua pai than ycdahiong. They are all like managing directions of companies and yada. He even called up his friends' relative and I have spoken to many lawyers already. My direction is to do intellectual law and not go to court. I will be those lawyer that will suck up to your ass so that you can give business to me LOL. hahaha. In fact, the other day, another lawyer called my dad abruptly (not my dad call one) and she spoke Chinese in a very cheena-woman manner so my sis thought that she sounded like a prostitute HAHA. She sounded more like a human when she spole English though. So back to my main point... my dad got many people to give advice to me and many of them encourages me to go UK for exposure. But the questions is always 1) Are you ready and mature enough to live on your own 2) Do you like reading books? Lawyer has to read a lot. I was stumped. I always thought that I was mature but am I really ready to go UK, somewhere so far and somewhere I have never been to? Can I handle the pressure? Am I able to adapt?

Moreover, I'm not going for 1 year you know? I'm going there for min. 4 years till I finish my degree. hai. And I gotta get good good results like AAA* so that I can get into a good uni and graduate with second upper honor degree. And and.. the cost of studying is not cheap at all. Estimation for me to finish my degree will be around 160k. x__x""" It will be worth if I become a lawyer but what if I don't and fail? Money gone. Time wasted. By then, all my friends would have achieved more than me while I'm like a piece of shit.

But after hearing, life is like that isn't it? I gotta get good results no matter where I go and it will be faster for me to go overseas instead. The lawyers that I spoke to took a longer path before they became a lawyer. Some took diploma... then take law degree. A longer and tougher path. I'm still contemplating and gonna appeal to ACJC if I don't get in.

P/s: I need to express my gratitude to my bro who is also very nice to invite me to his gathering so that his friend who is studying law can give me some advice.

Have a nice day.

2012-01-27T07:56:00.000-08:00

HAHA. My brother's friends just left but I'm so excited to blog about this...

I've found back the excitement in gambling!!!

We were playing this game called "In between" and I was so so so so happy and excited (even though I lost about $3) hehehehe. I kept laughing and his friends was like "Yoke Cheng very happy ah!". One of his friend even said he can teach me more games if I go Melbourne HAHA. Love gambling hehehe. :D It's a game where everybody chips in 10 cent at first and then the game goes round and round. Even though we play 10 cents, the "pot" can be as much as $20+. Imagine how much it will be if you play 50 cents or more. hehehe. I'm such a gambler:-)) Just wanna tell you I found back the excitement that used to bring joy and happiness to me~ black jack no longer feels fun.

hahaha. yc is a happy girl today~

2012-01-26T05:24:00.000-08:00

Today was a hectic day.

Firstly, we went to check about my overseas thingy in the morning. Encouraging our sis to go too. Then we went to have lunch with my dad's friends. More like entertainment and it just shows that entertainment is not for me. Then we went to imm to look for designer. We then brought the designer to reflections. After that, we went to visit our grandparents. That's what I did in one day and I think i wrote this post to remind myself to live more meaningfully and not watching dramas everyday like how I used too. I still watch dramas but I'm gonna limit myself and not chiong so many dramas in one day. Have a nice day. Bb.

2012-01-24T23:10:00.000-08:00

CNY has finally ended. When I was still sec2, I will still look forward towards CNY and dress up prettily. Wake up early in the morning and want to rush to my grandparents' house... To gamble haha. But now as I grow up, I get exposed to many things. Ugly little things. My family is not the typical family ya. So I'm not the typical child either.

Now, I dread CNY and thank god it's over. My life.

2012-01-20T09:40:00.000-08:00

I promise myself to stop getting so high and speak so loudly like an auntie. I will stop vein like an auntie. I mean really... I will stop being so concerned about people and forget myself. I will learn to put myself as priority and not forsake my own interest for the sake of being concerned of another needs and feelings.

I don't know. I will try to change to be a happier person so that I won't feel so down before I sleep. Just because I think too much about what kind of friend I am and how much importance I hold in their life. Not importance but rather will they think of my feelings... Be considerate? Maybe it's my fault. Not theirs. It's because how I behave and act. I shall change. I will not lose my original self but to try to make myself a happier person.

I want to start anew.

2012-01-17T10:14:00.003-08:00

Just came back from hong kong but don't feel like sleeping. Read cheeserland's shopping haul blog and was like..... That's nothing compared to what I bought from hk and Taiwan so I'm wtf now because god knows what I did when I went hk and Taiwan. Practically, I became a shopping addict who can't control herself fml. I need to abstain myself from the sinful hobby called shopping from now on. Anyway I don't think I'll buy anything in sg anymore because they are so ex. Today we accidentally walked to the wrong place in hk and I was like oh shit but then...... We saw h&m so I was like go in and see see lor but guess what???!!! THEY HAD SALES and its so freaking worth so I bought many many things. Including one shitty dress that's so adult and I don't think I'll wear it at all fml.

Shld had taken a photo of my loots (yes. I call it loots) from Taiwan and u will be like wtf yc u r crazy. Gonna take my hong kong one let u all see and xia si ni. Their clothes r like one for $10 (I went to mong kok the shopping paradise. Better than bugis) and quality not bad sia. I will nv buy anything from bugis from now on!!!! Now I know where to shop when im in Taiwan hehehe. Taoyuan is the perfect place!!!! Taipei is a little too ex hehehe:) ESP for ppl like yc who wants cheap n nice LOL.

2012-01-14T21:35:00.000-08:00

Currently in Hong Kong now...... people in HK are quite rude I must say. If you compare to the people in Taiwan, they are much more rude. Taiwan people are friendly and nice hahahahaha. But still, I love hearing Cantonese around me. And it's time to buck up on my Cantonese LOL.

Have a nice day. :D

My story with Mr. Tham and the photo

2012-01-13T07:48:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody. I'm flying to Hong Kong tomorrow but I'm not looking forward to it because I just had a argument with my sis. Ya, so stupid right. Go ahead and laugh at me. *sad life max*

Omg. I just realised YS, Evelyn and me have been spending our days together in a row. wow :D Hahahaha. Today was freaking fun but thinking back, I was really crazy to go to the general office to ask Mr. Tham to take a photo with me. Freaking despo can X_X Actually I wanted to turn back and get out of general office but evil-but-nice Evelyn gave me a glaring stare. I caused her to miss 2 buses and it was really freaky because I didn't know someone can get so angry over 2 buses -_-" And I was really quite scared of Evelyn at that time because I'm really a bitch if I don't go and ask Mr. Tham for photo. I was really embarrassing because I kept laughing to myself like a siao zha bor and hid behind Yishuen's arm like some stupid kid OMG T___T I must have looked like a stupid person!!!!!!!! I hope no one knows about my embarrassing event in Jurong today. I know right, I'm telling you all HAHA. But I must say it out in my blog if not I will keep thinking it to myself and perhaps, burst... due to stress. Ya I am that emotional LOL. I was packing my room for the 2nd round again because I can't bear to throw my papers away....... so I'm gonna do it round by round until one day I find the papers are really taking up space. They are all memories... following me through the 2 tough years in O-level with me. O-level is tough, but to an extent, you gotta admit it is memorable. And I read my situational writing again and was impressed by myself. I mean, I don't think I can even write that well now....... that's me, throwing my brain away after O-level. (effects of last minute zzz. you dump everything inside your head and throw it the moment examinations is over)

Oh ya, how can I know show you my chio chio photo with Mr. Tham when this post is all about the Journey of Getting A Photo With Mr. Tham Kine Thong. HAHA :D

Special thanks to:
1. Evelyn's mouth
2. Yishuen's arm (thanks for not pushing me away!!! I think Evelyn will push me away if I hid behind her so I LUV U YS. Really!!!)

Ok lah. Still must thank Evelyn's mouth because without her, this photo will not appear at all.

SUSPENSE

HAHA. Actually, I was thinking that maybe I take one photo with fake Mr. Tham but later I thought it was really pathetic and I was supposed to go up on stage and shake Mr. Tham's hand one... so I decided to find Mr. Tham but regretted a little...... and wanted to turn back but Evelyn is so scary T___T" Really. Partly because of Evelyn that I didn't want to leave general office because I thought it was really bitch to make everyone miss their bus and ya... become 缩头乌龟!

Evelyn the scary who gets angry over 2 missed buses.

Insisted to go general office... but end up regretting. but end up being very happy because YC finally fulfilled her wish......... but now, regretting again because I think I was acting like a crazy girl. Whatsmore, I didn't wear my shoe and wore a slipper to school.... didn't even iron my clothes. What a bad student LOL. T__T"" Anyway, I was quite happy that Ms. Teo remember me but yaaaaa.... I bet she is gonna have a bad impression of me now T__T""""

TADA!!!! :D

2012-01-11T05:14:00.001-08:00

Ok. so now my dad really psycho me to go overseas to study. I don't know hahahahahaha. And YS and Evelyn also got convinced by my dad. but it's quite true right? My dad very clever right hahaha. LOL.

Omg when can I get over my infatuation. I think I need at least 1 month. T_T"
Btw, my results are good and not that good yunno. L1R5 is 10 but after bonus, it is 8. Really sad that I didn't get A1 for my a-maths. Oh Mr. Sam T_T"

2012-01-10T04:24:00.000-08:00

I can't believe my sis and I spoke to this guy. In an amazing and crazy way. God knows what we did but ya!! Anyway, I was quite surprised to see another perspective of Singapore where law and fairness does not exist (if he did not lie hahaha). I don't know. I think we were quite crazy to think about it. And I think because of the incident that happened yesterday, I learnt that life can be filled with MORE ups and downs with me. As in, I know someone is having a more difficult time than me but this is the first time I encounter that person. x_x

Anyway, tmr going for JC open house and going to get my results! I'm really happy and feel really fortunate. Thank you.

2012-01-09T21:29:00.001-08:00

I did something very very crazy last night.

2012-01-02T04:50:00.000-08:00

Be right back. Off to Taiwan. By the time I'm back, results will be release. Hope that I'll bring back good news by that time. XOXO.

P/s: When Heaven Burns is a great TVB drama.

2012-01-01T07:53:00.000-08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY.

I think I have spent my past few days meaningfully but errr... I haven't pack my photo albums and my room yet *bang head*

- On Wednesday, went to subscribe passion card membership with Jocelyn and got a Angry Bird (I hate it, it is OVER-RATED). The receptionist is very sweet and nice=) Then we went to Daiso and bought many stuff.
- On Thursday, went for the cookies lesson with Jocelyn and realised committee club is cheat one. I paid $20 just to see people make cookies=( There was no hands-on activities. WHY U LIE TO ME?
- On Friday, went for Kbox with Yihong and Shimin and had fun singing. Tried to sing from my diaphragm but FAILED MAX. Starting it was quite boring because I always sing zhao xia and then I started singing better and better... but time was up. Oh gosh, that's always what happens when you go Kbox. You sing until damn shuang liao then the time is up. X_X OUR LIFE. Watched Sherlock Holmes afterwards. Got quite confused with the movie but as the story goes, it was quite interesting and you see how smart Holmes is. He is freaking funny too.
- On Saturday, IT'S NEW YEAR EVE. Went to Punggol to see the new condo that they are gonna build. It's like Centris but the MRT and LRT is below the condo too? It is for investment, not for stay. Anyway, my father likes our new house @ Reflections and kept propaganda-ing me everyday about how fantastic that place it is. So here I am telling you how awesome it is too LOL. He freaking fickle minded one. 6 months ago he was also propaganda-ing me about how awesome Rochester is. By the way, I love looking at show rooms=) I wanna be as pro as my father and learn how to invest!!! Anyway, I'm gonna invest my savings on a factory with my dad. I'm only maybe erm... a 15% shareholder but better than nothing right! Afterwards, went to watch The Last Hour with my sis and her bf. Yeah, I'm the lightbulb. You think I like meh. chey. I hate watching stories when the survival of human is threatened eg. got vampire/monster/aliens come and attack Earth. My sister love watching gruesome movies like these. P/s: The Last Hour sucks so don't bother watching it. The ending was stupid and "opened". We then went to join the crowed and saw the chio chio fireworks. It was so crowded and I had to squeeze with everybody. I told my sis next year I'm gonna book Marina Bay Sands AND CELEBRATE MY B'DAY THERE!!! OK that's my big fat hope. BUT I'LL MAKE IT HAPPEN. LOL. *crazy*

On a side note, I need to throw some of my papers although I'm quite reluctant too... but since Shimin is so hiong to throw all her papers, I should throw some too!

MUST THROW PAPERS:
1) English
2) Chemistry!!! I WILL NEVER STUDY CHEM ANYMORE!!! HAHAHAHA.
3) Physics (I can rely on my textbook if I need to revise it again)
4) Chinese (HAHA. I have reached the highest level and in case I need to improve my Chinese - watch TVB)

MUST NOT THROW PAPERS:
1) Humanities
2) My lovely A-maths and E-maths notes. Aw, Mr. Sam should really know how devoted I am to Maths.
3) Biology

Anyway, I'm gonna write a long post because I am quite free now (in an attempt to avoid packing stuff and arranging my photos. that's tedious ok?). I'm quite happy since I caught the pretty fireworks yesterday but when I went to yahoo just now, I realised that there are other prettier fireworks FML. NVM!!! 一山比一山高！

Ok, I admit I was quite emotional for these few days BUT SAY BYE BYE TO THE EMO YC!!! I'm gonna be a better yc for 2012! I think 2012 looks really nice when you write it. 2011 looks so dull, don't ya think so? So we gotta lead a better life for 2012 :D

So I'm gonna post photos from Wallace (my iPhone). It has been a long time since I wrote a long long post!=)

EGYPT

First time seeing the... wind mills! =) I remember it was a dream for me to watch it because I saw a TVB drama with Nick Cheung in it and the wind mills hold a special significance to that drama~

Everyday was a beautiful view from the cruise as we go along the Nile River. When you see it everyday, you think it's normal. Now that I'm back in Singapore, I miss the desert and the glistening sand. I see sun set almost everyday.

Love this dress but don't have my size!!! :( I like it so much. Damn nice!!!

Elections going on...

Lucky people who sees the pyramid everyday. Anyway, I think that Taj Mahal is a much more magnificent view than the pyramids. But you do have to admit that the ancient Egyptians are geniuses to be able to build such a majestic triangle building. They took 20 years to build one yunno! The kings start building their own tomb upon ascending the throne LOL. They believed in afterlife=)

The library in Alexandria.

Forgot what sea it is LOL. It is a sea that you can see in the map one!!! I forgot x_x

The hotel... a totally different place. And you realised the difference between the rich and the poor hai. I think I said before. If I'm a citizen in a third world country, I will think that those tourists are bimbos who comes to my land to waste my food and water. They are here only for the WOW effects (read this from an English comprehension! I apply what I learn ok).

Started cross stitching my pooh. I'm halfway done now... shall post a picture of the end product once I finish it!

Made the effort to crawl my way to East Coast Park. I'm freaking lazy and hate to take long distance MRT. Somemore go the ECP must take MRT then take bus T_T Anyway, I don't like to eat BBQ food anymore=(

YC. Not I write one haha.

Ate ramen at Tampopo. The paper roses accompanied with light bulbs brightens up the place. DIY makes a difference.

Realised that I shall not longer belittle my father anymore although he cannot speak proper English and Chinese *laughs* I always correct him when he speaks wrongly and feel shuang deep in my heart. So my father is damn smart when it comes to designing engineering stuff.

Attempting to tie plaits. How come people tie very thin but mine is so thick?

Saw this nail at tumblr and thought that it was really pretty.

Told my sis that I wanted the rilakuma on the right as my b'day present but she got me another one. :( I complaint but she said that I shouldn't because it is a gift. *face palm* Anyway I asked my mum to buy me this one if I can get at least 4/5 As for my O-levels.

Went to Keppel Bay to eat chawanmushi. One cost $12 can. So ex. BTW, I like to eat raw salmon now. I hated it last time.

The view of Reflections.

The present my sis got for me. *hint hint*

Bowling on Vysh b'day...! Got her a photo frame. I have one too=) Jocelyn told me to put photos of Vysh and me inside the photo frame. Damnit should have done it LOL.

At Daiso with Jocelyn~ trying out hats. Apparently, she watch Budget Barbie too.

At Kbox with Yihong and Shimin.

That's all! I think Wallace can take nice photos and I download an apps that can turn your skin flawless! HEHE.=) Only the photo that I took with Jocelyn @ Daiso was edited. The rest was due to the perfect lighting hehe.

2011-12-31T08:49:00.003-08:00

Happy new year!!! It's 2012 and a year where my journey of adulthood begins.

Went to see the fireworks near the esplanade. The technology has made vast improvements. The fireworks look like blossoming flowers and it can even "dances around". :) I enjoyed my new year eve and I'm going to Taiwan soon. Haha. I'm not really excited for it. I don't know:( I feel that I'm losing the excitement I had once when I get to go overseas and be so amazed at every single thing that I see.

My resolution for the year: (shall make 2 and not a big list so that I am able to fulfil it.)
1. Be friendly to people (smile more!)
2. Learn to hold an optimistic view of life.
3. Study hard regardless if I go to jc or poly. I shall not be a lazy dum dum who doesn't even work hard for o-levels.

Hope you enjoyed new year eve as much as I did. I really enjoyed the colourful fireworks:) have a great and exciting 2012!!! Go and lead a more meaningful life!!! XOXO.

2011-12-29T09:12:00.001-08:00

I hope I won't dream today. Have been dreaming weird dreams nowadays and it shows how insecure I am. Ya. Can't wait to go to Taiwan and escape from Singapore.

What a life. My life. HAVE A NICE DAY!!!

P/s: thanks ys for your b'day present. I really think I saw it somewhere before. Really. So creepy fml.
P/p/s: I think I got cheated by The Frontier because how can I pay $20 and look at the instructor baking while I just look??? Ok, I really 不明白!!
P/p/p/s: I think I'm really troubled by the previous conversation and it's haunting me. As in, I don't really understand what she said but the reason why I feel so troubled is because there is something about me that is not right nor correct. I know nobody is perfect and she is not perfect either. I think I was really wrong to start that kind of conversation. From the start, I'm someone who is really vulnerable and "sensitive" to people around me and starting that kind of conversation will make me feel insecure again and feel emotion for at least maximum 2 days. OMG. My life. Anyway, I think I will get better. I hope. I really need to go on a holiday gosh. My life is craaaazzzzzzy.

2011-12-29T08:22:00.000-08:00

So I was thinking of studying psychology because I'm quite interested in reading human minds but on a deeper thought, it's not a good thing because I think if you understand human too much, you will end up having depression. That's what I think lah. For people like me who thinks a lot. OH WELL.

Or maybe I should study optometry instead of engineering. Engineer is "too man" for me and I don't think I will be very happy working. Hai. Life. My life. Okay, upon speaking with Jocelyn on MSN, I think I better not study psychology. I'm wondering. I'm reflecting hahaha. Ok, maybe I should not reflect too much on myself. It's not very good. As in, I'm quite depressed nowadays but I don't know why am I going into that topic. Like the match making show I watched recently... human always want to know about the past/love history of their other partner. Even though they know they will end up being unhappy, they still probe. Just like me now. Ok, I better stop the conversation now. It's really scary. So decided not to study psychology. I will really get emo/stressful/scary if I do.

Just a side note, I was researching on psychology just now and it surprised me to see the book I enjoyed reading costing $500+. Book, WHY U SO EXPENSIVE?

2011-12-27T18:47:00.000-08:00

Hello.

Yesterday, I went bowling with Vyshnavi, Shimin, Hinwai and Hannah. So at first, I was very hyper for the first 2 hours but my energy level went down and I became quite quiet and started looking at my surroundings. I should change this bad habit. Then we went back to Jurong Point to eat and I was quite hyper again and blabbered funny things which made Shimin and Hinwai and me laugh like shit so I consider that as a achievement FML. I hope everyday is a better day. I thought I needed to remind myself that I can be happy so I went to look at my Egypt photos again and felt better. Recently, I'm quite emo so probably I'm gonna get depression soon X_X Ok lah, joking hahaha. ANYWAY, I'm gonna move house soon... perhaps in 3 more months? So excited for the new house because it is really magnificent and the scenery is especially beautiful hehehe. Have a nice day. Results are coming soon. I'm excited and scared at the same time because I knew I didn't do my best for my A-maths, E-maths and Humanities... but just HUAT LA!!! Hope I can get good results, really. Pray.

2011-12-26T02:32:00.000-08:00

Went to Pulau Ubin today and cycled. Pulau Ubin feels like Malaysia and is a perfect place to go to relax and cycle if you are talking about somewhere near Singapore. Results are coming back soon. I had a dream that was not very pleasant today and it makes the level of my self-confidence going down to the pit bottom. My life is so pathetic. Hope life gets better but life goes on nonetheless. I need to watch some happy and romantic drama to lift up my spirit.

2011-12-24T06:54:00.000-08:00

Reading 千山暮雪 aka Sealed With A Kiss. The book from dangdang.com finally arrived and it took about 1 and a half month, pretty long I must say.

Happy Christmas. It's my first time spending it in Singapore so I feel that it is especially boring. Have been spending my Christmas for 2 years in Korea. Have a nice day, bb.

2011-12-24T01:05:00.001-08:00

Watching 刑事偵緝檔案IV and Louis Koo is so handsome hahaha. Saw many actors that are quite famous now like Michael Tse. It's nice to see the golden age of TVB where there are many fine actors in one show. TVB=)

2011-12-21T08:24:00.000-08:00

Life goes on because YC is da hiong. wahaha. God knows what I did but I learn to follow my heart.

Anyway, I watched A Thousand Days starring Su Ae as a young lady with dementia and the last episode took my life. I kept on crying until my lips trembled. Thank god I only watched the last episode... I've been reading the rest of the episodes like a story book @ dramabeans.com (with pictures included).

坚信：）

2011-12-21T07:06:00.000-08:00

I'm going to Taiwan HAHA. Just book a tour with my sister today. And this time, it's ME and MY SIS again! The last time we went overseas together was to Korea in Year 2010. Time flies =) I think it's very sweet for us to go overseas together hahaha (although my sis can be an ass sometimes). So I'm gonna to Taiwan on my b'day hahahaha. So cool right. Weiling said the people in airport wished her happy b'day when they saw her so the whole Taiwan is gonna wish me happy b'day too, I bet >:D ok lah, I'm joking. I'm full of bullshit nowadays so please give me some time to organise my thoughts and become someone normal again!!!

2011-12-18T05:37:00.000-08:00

So today my father brought us to shopping and allowed us to buy whatever clothes we want. So at first, my bro started buying clothes that are like $150 per piece. I felt sibei gek sim because although it's my father's money, it's still my money. T_T I know, I'm a very nice daughter. But in the end, I gave in to temptation and bought 2 Tommy Hilfiger shirts. So that's my story of my Struggle With VivoCity and Temptation.

Hope you had a nice day too. P/s: I feel that my skin complexion is getting from bad to worst now=(

2011-12-16T01:44:00.000-08:00

Very hungry. We are gonna get back results soon. I don't think it's nice to take it before CNY hm.

Rebonding hair now and feeling hungry now. :((

Bought a hello kitty case for Wallace (iPhone) and he looks like a pretty babe now hehehehe. Pretty wallace!!! Ok even as I type now, i feel disgusting to call Wallace pretty :S anyway I'm not crazy over hello kitty but I feel that this hello kitty casing is really cute. :D

P/s: I think jocelyn reads my blog now. Hello. Hahahaha. :))

2011-12-14T07:02:00.001-08:00

$$$$$$$

It's amazing how some people can use so many tactics to get $$$$. Evil guy. Knew it!!! Hai hai. My life is like a drama, seriously.

2011-12-13T17:39:00.000-08:00

Ok I was offered a job at ang mo kio as a receptionist and a admin as tanjong pagar but I rejected it as I prefer jobs near the west. I know I won't be happy travelling to and fro because I'm extremely lazy. But I feel like a bitch for not grabbing the opportunity given to me and still being so picky. It's not like I'm very educated zzz.

2011-12-13T06:44:00.000-08:00

Some Egypt photos. Saw Beatrice Tan going to Korea and she makes me wanna go again. I like to go Korea hehe. I don't dare to go to Japan now because I believe that radiation will takes years and years to disappear. So kiasu lol. There's an interview tomorrow but I'm freaking lazy like seriously. Hope I can manage to drag myself all the way to Ngee Ann City. By the way, my dad is amazing because he helped me to edit my resume and it turned out to be awesome. His tip: Write your resume based on the job you are applying for. However, he reminded me that if I find a job, how can I go to Hong Kong? Uh-oh. Dunno la, see first LOL. QA Dental Clinic called me but they only have jobs in the East T_T So far X_X

就这样

2011-12-09T09:57:00.000-08:00

The funny thing about me is that I like to see pictures of people going overseas. But up till now, I have not seen the photos of me going to Egypt LOL. Think I'm too lazy to sort out the photos that I want to print :S

I wanna go Korea for a home stay hmm but no one to accompany me hai hai. Trying to find a job now as a assistant in clinics etc because my sister keeps telling me not to find a job as a waitress. Hope I can find one? Because if I end up going to polytechnic, school will only start at March. Looking at wallpapers now to deco our new house. I think it will look freaking chio to have wallpapers instead of paints in your house!

2011-12-08T07:41:00.000-08:00

I like class outing hahaha. Didn't regret going! But I bet I'm gonna have muscle aches tomorrow.

[updated]

So yesterday was a fun day heh. I didn't know going to West Coast Park was such a tough journey. We had to take MRT, take bus and then walk. Rode a bike for like 2 hours? And totally wanted to faint and took a rest while looking at the sea, not exactly beautiful but it relaxes my mind and my feet.

Saw a couple hugging and kissing in the sea like nobody business for 2 hours. After that, they went missing so we thought that they finally finished their drama in the sea but we saw them 10m away from us!!! They are still hugging as usual so Jessie and I decided to pass by them but THEY WENT AWAY THE MOMENT WE REACHED LOL. I bet Jessie looks too scary lah? Anyway Jessie keeps hitting me and I don't like people who hit me so I decided not to play the hitting game with Jessie anymore. I SWEAR. x_x Somemore I don't know why I continued to take the class photo and not turn my head to shout at them. I should had, really. ANYWAY. Yesterday was a fun day and I ended the day right by taking taxi with Shimin, Shirley and Hinwai home. It cost only $4.10 per person hehehe.

Just wanna say that perhaps I'm old or what, I don't really like to BBQ anymore already. I like to have all of my food on spot and not wait for them one by one. :-(

2011-12-07T02:28:00.000-08:00

我的如意狼君/Bottled Passion (note: the lang in 如意郎君should be "郎" but they changed to "狼" which means wolf in chinese to represent how cunning the male lead is). Lee Tim Shing's production who is well-known for No Regrets that propelled Wayne Lai and Sheren Tang to greater heights.

Firstly, I only watched the first episode and I think it is really a great show and an interesting one because in the first episode, it shows the dynamics of Raymond Wong and how two-sided his character was. At first, I thought he had some psychological disorder but upon reading synopsis from websites, he actually had an unhappy childhood since he was adopted by the Gao Family and he decided to come back to take revenge on the Gao Family, leading him to become so evil and has so many "sides" to his character. Pretty interesting because you rarely see an evil character as male lead in TVB. But I believe that he will become kind because Niki Chow will CHANGE him as usual. They call it the power of love hahaha.

Looking forward to Episode 2 =)

Talks about cannibalism, a sensitive topic that TVB rarely touches. For the first few episodes, HK netizens kept sending complaints to TVB about how CRUEL and BLOODY the show was. Seriously, when TVB wants to make changes (improvement comes with changes, right?), HK netizens just complain and complain. They can really complain a lot. Seriously. I read HK news everyday and whenever a new drama is released, there will be so many complaints like how this shouldn't be placed in the time slot where children can watch and blah blah blah.

The most amazing part of this drama is that it touches you in depth depth depth (really really deep down in my heart) because it is not supposed to be sad? It reaches my brain, stimulating me to think mentally about adult relationship and Charmaine Sheh acted really well about how lost she was when Ka Ming died, losing sleep and turning around in her bed in the middle of the night. It depicted well of the complicity of modern relationship we faces everyday such as adultery, with the addition of cannibalism. Anyway, it is not bloody as you think because only Episode 1 and 2 shows them killing Ka Ming but only blood splatters. Moreover, I love the acting of Bowie Lam and has not seen many of his new TVB dramas because I think the plot was quite cliche and boring such as River of Wine (TVB 2011). In any case, When Heaven Burns allows me to enjoy his acting and at the same time, the plot.

Gosh, it has been ONE WHOLE YEAR since TVB launched such high quality dramas. The last drama that was worth watching was No Regrets (TVB 2010).

In any case, my love for TVB has revived!

P/s: the theme song for Bottled Passion kinda suck. It is trying to deliver a depressing tone but fails utterly to do so. Sounds a little like whining to me lol.

2011-12-01T17:39:00.000-08:00

On my way to shopping now and I can only say I'm appalled on the weight I've put on during my trip to Egypt. I must go to the gym seriously. I swear I definitely will this time because seeing my flabby arms and big thighs motivates me. Really. Ok maybe I'll delete this post later since its so awkward x_x

2011-12-01T07:05:00.000-08:00

Ok I'm slacking on my bed now using my computer. I told myself to lead a meaningful life but I'm errrrr... not meeting up to my expectations.

ANYWAY, I went to Yamaha today to check the course timing/price etc and the freaking lady was so rude?

Me: Oh, so it is the same price even if I don't take grading?

Freaking lady: *pause* Ya, it is the same. The teacher still spent time teaching you right?

Me: *ZZZ*

And my sister said thank you to her in the end which I DID NOT AGREE. I am really pretty polite and will express my gratitude to any receptionist who answers my question but this freaking lady? No. She was mocking at my sister and me as if we are some idiots when we ask her question. So freaking rude. I hope I don't see her when I go for my lessons argh.

On a happier side, I managed to do something meaningful today which involves me

1. Going to NTUC to search for ingredients so that I can cook dinner for my family and IT IS NOT EASY FINDING dried food, spices, chicken, pork and all that. You have to compare prices and the quality. I think I spent more than 1 hours in NTUC LOL. I was so tired after buying all the ingredients and was quite overwhelmed how much a housekeeper/maid can do in one day? Quite tiring I must say! And it was my first time cooking steam egg and it turned out really nice and smooth! The other time my brother tried was a 100% failure because how can you steam 水蛋 without adding 水 (water)? LOL. The next time he added water, it was too hard, making it inedible. So I felt that I did a good job HAHA. *praise myself*

2. Went to Community Center and searched for activities to do. I'm gonna attend a baking course (for festive cookies).

3. Went online to search for jobs and got some reply. My dad saw me lying on the bed like a stupid fat pig and asked me to join his company since I'm so free. He hit my soft spot. Ok, other than shopping, learning piano (which I'm gonna do soon) and using computer, I basically don't really do anything. So ya. I wanna find a job at Jurong Point so it is really convenient. I hope I can get a job in Starbucks, Coffee Bean or Bakerzin. So coolzzzzzzzz.

4. Gonna shopping with my sister tomorrow. Honestly, what do everybody do at home if they are not working? You can't be shopping everyday? :O

AH. This is my 1000th post and I can't believe I ended up ranting about a rude lady and yada. It's not a big deal that her service sucks. Just a part of our everyday life. Who don't experience bad service?

Shall conclude my 1000th post with "What Special Things I Did In Egypt".

1. I rode on a quartz, in the middle of a desert AT NIGHT. It was freezing. And I did not wear a glove so my fingers were stiff and for a moment, I lost touch with my fingers and was so afraid it was frostbite and I will end up losing control and not be able to use my fingers anymore. I think too much, I know. But you know what? My fingers were so stiff that I couldn't control the quartz any longer and the quartz stopped. In the end, I had to tell my mother to press the button for me. The next day I woke up, my fingers HAD MUSCLE ACHE. It hurt so much and I couldn't move my fingers too much. LIKE?!?!

2. Saw White Desert, Black Desert and Crystal Mountain. The difference between White and Black Desert is due to the fact that Black Desert had volcanic eruption before so the lava "dried up" and ended becoming like "black stones" causing the Black Desert to be called Black. White Desert is not exactly white actually. It is more of fine, soft, shiny sand. Later, I saw big white stones and it looked like hard ice bergs. Yeah. We saw the sun set, which I wasn't as amazed as the first time I saw because we saw at least 4 times of sun setting in Egypt. The sun in Egypt is not glaring to the eyes and I can stare at it without hurting my eyes. The sun is especially round and big. The moon is especially well-defined. Did I mention that I peed in the open desert HAHA. There was no toilet so bobian you know hehe. My sister insisted on going to the stone that is so near to everyone and was lazy to walk to another stone (which was situated quite far away) BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO LET ANYBODY BE NEAR ME WHILE I PEE. The people from the tour even helped my sister to "cover" her so that she cannot be seen by the men but she ended up having her buttock seen by the women. Even though they turned their face, I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO SEE ME URINATING. So I ran and ran and peed alone, silently. Peace was given to me and I was entitled to pee alone for all the efforts I made to run to the stone that was so far from me. Later, we ate in the desert and the people there are so clever to make tents... and prepared delicious food for us! I wonder how they cooked the rice and soup.

3. After the dinner, we had to gather in a circle while the Egyptian was in the middle, playing instrument. They are amazing. They can drive, cook, set up tents, play musical instruments (read: bao ge liao). Later, I saw the largest amount of stars I can see in the sky and bid goodbye to the desert and thousands of stars before setting off. Hai.

4. Sat on a hot air balloon. Wasn't as amazing as I thought it to be but finally, I know why it is so pricey to sit on a hot air balloon. It requires A LOT of manpower to set up the hot air balloon and according to the man who I asked, they fly at different altitude so that they can change direction. I thought that it was quite cool.

5. Sat on a camel which was a horrible experience. I nearly spained my back because they first get up on they back legs followed by their hind legs so it was like a roller coaster ride and sometimes, the camel will suddenly kick his feet and I have to grab TIGHTLY on the handle.

6. Saw the Three Pyramids at Giza and wasn't as magnificent as I thought it would be. I think Taj Mahal is more magnificent. Maybe I'm a superficial woman who only gets amazed by marbles and superficial things fml. However, I had to admit that the Egyptians are really clever to build the pyramids which took them 20 years to just build one. They are good artists and has great patience (just look at the intricate details in the drawing). They even have a God of Fertility with the *uh hm* shooting up and you go LIKE WHAT?! I didn't know that *uh hm* shoots 90 degrees up until I watched You're The Apple of My Eyes.

7. Ate eggs and chicken continuously for 10 days.

8. Saw the dam where they insert water to rise the cruise so that they can continue the journey. It's called lock something :S

9. Spent 4 days in a cruise and my my... there were only our tour group and another small group of ang mohs. So there was only 40 people in the cruise? Although it is a small cruise, it felt as if I booked the whole cruise HAHA. Saw sun rise in the cruise and felt like a lucky and happy girl. However, there was a day where I stayed in the cruise because it was free and easy and we didn't want to on land because Egyptians are so scary who will continuously bug you to take their taxi and pretty unsafe. There was tourists but they are mostly ang mohs and not Asians? Oh ya, I played table tennis and felt like a professional when I competed with my sister. Say "POWER!" together with me hahaha. :D

10. Drank the most delicious tomato soup, vegetable soup and chicken soup. Simply tasty!

Ok, I think that's all. Too lazy to post photos because I need to sort out the photos from my overseas trip. Goodbye.

Egypt

2011-11-30T04:31:00.000-08:00

Became a terrorist. Riding a quartz.

Saw tombs and tombs and tombs...

Sat on a boat controlled by wind only. I don't know what is this called haha.

Went to see the 111m tall dam

And became a superwoman.

2011-11-29T07:09:00.000-08:00

Currently @ dubai airport waiting for transit to singapore. yes, I'm back. Safe. Egypt was a pretty place, the cleanliness is slightly better than India but for some reasons, I've a pimple breakout. For my whole face. (which is the first time since my pimples normally only pop out near my nose or forehead but now, it is around my cheeks too fml) so ya I feel my face is so horrible with the new pimples x_x

Gonna rebond my hair after I reach Singapore because my sis thought we were arriving singapore earlier so we have to rush haha. 10 hours of flight later!!! My back is aching from all the bus rides in Egypt already and now... I have to take another long ride (agony).

3 more posts to my 1000 posts. Wow. This blog represents my childhood. BB!! I will be back :D

2011-11-26T10:07:00.000-08:00

I'm in Cairo now... Going to the desert tmr again and did I tell you I drove in a quartz in a middle of the desert AT NIGHT? Without light on a quartz. Wanted to die cos we rode for so long and it was so cold. I woke up the next morning with my fingers aching. Like?!?!?

Saw the prom photos and I was kind of glad I didn't go in the end. Yunno how much I wanted to go to the prom but ya hahahaha. Glad I didn't go.

Egypt was so sian until I went shopping. It was only yesterday that I realised why I was so bored. I DIDN'T GO SHOPPING!!!! Ok gtg i still think its not safe in Egypt although tour guide say protests are only confined in the dunno what square. Bb.

Hehe I'm back! The hotel that they provides us are all really good... Always choosing 5 star hotel. Normally tours don't provide that all the time. This hotel is so pretty and nice like 6 star hotel like that T_T I don't like sleeping on a sleeper train. It was so shaky and the toilet was so smelly hai hai. Anyway nothing to buy here. :(

Sometimes I feel quite lucky to visit so many countries. Anyway if I'm the local, I will hate the tourists who are living in luxury lol. I dunno but the people here are so friendly and nearly all speak English! They have mix blood like Egyptians with Arabs or European blood. Quite interested in egyptian history. The small kids in my tour was so well versed in the history of Egypt and I felt so stupid. X_X

Miss Singapore and the food.

2011-11-20T03:33:00.000-08:00

Hehe. Egypt is so fun. Went to red sea today and saw red clorals. Stood in the middle of the sea and took pretty jump shots.

We are now in a resort so the hotel is pretty good and clean. Gonna go on a cruise for 4 days tomorrow so I hope the cruise is good too!! Gonna take a quartz bike later. Took a long time to convince my sis to go for it cos it is very expensive. 55usd per person! Hope its fun. Gonna take hot air balloon tmr too:D

Egypts seems safe but we still must be careful. Sometimes the ppl there will just keep waving or say hi to us freaking scary.

Bb xoxo.

2011-11-18T17:32:00.001-08:00

At Dubai waiting for transit to Cairo. The flight was 7 hours and perhaps, I'm old now. It seems so long and agonising:(

Also. I think I have grown up. In the past, before I go to another country, I will be super excited but this time I was not at all.

Heh love my iPhone because I'm listening to my fav song from too late to say I love you ost. Ok bb hope cairo have free wifi but I don't think so because for the first day, the water will be yellow! So ya haha. But it's only for the first day. See ya!

2011-11-18T02:09:00.000-08:00

WAKAKA I GOT MY IPHONE 4S!!!!!

Omg, to be able to use iPhone all again is such a GREAT feeling!!! I miss iPhone and I must say blackberry is not nice to use at all. Other than the fact that it makes me look smart and cool, the functions available are limited and doesn't allow me to surf net efficiently. So ya... iPhone all that way!!!

That day, I was using my computer and iPad simultaneously so my bro was like "waa, o-level end liao then all your gadgets appear again huh" HEHE. :-)))

P/s: Siri doesn't work well :-( She doesn't understand me. Anyway, my new iPhone 4S is called Wallace, named after my new love, Wallace Chung YEA!

2011-11-17T03:19:00.001-08:00

Reading a book called "china condensed", featuring history of china. It's written well and I have only read 4 pages of the book, but I gained much knowledge. Maybe after reading this book, I'm going to library to read about the modern history of china! How I wished we were taught more about china for history lessons in school. :(

I'm going to Egypt tomorrow. My dad is quite angry about me going and not listening to him since Egypt is quite dangerous now. I don't know but we paid already, right? I learnt to check about the political and social situation of a country before I book a tour. Haha. I think after this, I will stop going to exotic countries! Went to India, cambodia and so many parts of china already. Hee. If I'm safe, which of course I will be!!! I'm gonna come back on 1 December. So yeah, look forward to majestic view of egypt that I'm gonna post, a part of the result of the risk I took, endangering my life. So see ya:)

Shall borrow a book about Egypt tomorrow before I go. Haha. Hope I have time to read!! :)

2011-11-15T08:55:00.000-08:00

Today was quite an eventful day hehe:-) o level has ended. My dad started talking to me about my route after o level. He told me I had another choice but idk if I should go for it a not. Can I handle it? Hope I can score well!!! :D "Yes I can!"

Had Swensen today and it's my first time eating earthquake with 4 people! normally I would be like, "ee I don't want to share saliva with other people!" but I was ok with it today:) if nothing goes wrong, we will be making nails. I know right. Its my first time doing it and I think I wanted to do it last year with someone but someone didn't wait for me. *cough* and this time we will be doing it with a bunch of people so freaking cool. We can like bomb the whole nail parlor with our awesomeness HAHA.

Wallace Chung is so freaking cool in too late to say I love you and I dont know how many time must I say that I LOVE handsome, talented, decisive, love-only-that-one-girl-in-his-whole-life man. Hehehe :-)) I realized his eyes has the charm that tony Leung has. No wonder I like him heeeee. Jocelyn said it was disgusting to stalk guys. She said she felt guilty for even downloading one picture of her idol. I hope she dont read my blog or else she will not how crazy I'm over guys T_T

Anyway, I think I have a very very good memory:))) I can still remember things vividly when I was in primary sch and all that. But it's so sad when I remember them but they don't remember me! Spoke to this girl from kranji primary sch and it was nice speaking to someone you knew long ago:) this world is so small.

Recently, I told myself to go for it. To give myself another chance and opportunity but I think nahh things have changed so I have to just let go!!:)

2011-11-09T09:45:00.000-08:00

I don't know what to say but...

Mainland dramas are crazily addictive!!!

I started watching mainland dramas since last year but I only watch a few series a year compared to TVB dramas where I ACTIVELY follow TVB dramas every single day. I watch 2 episodes of TVB dramas per day because that in Hong Kong, they broadcast 2 dramas a day. But now, I have totally abandoned TVB and really got so sick of it. I know I said TVB has been getting from bad to worst but now, it's so horrible that I have no words to express it... It's so hopeless that I have just given up on it. Perhaps, I will only watch the anniversary dramas? Even Forensic Heroes III turn out disappointing=(

A week ago, I was CRAZY over Sealed With A Kiss starring Hawick Lau (TVB actor who went to China for more opportunities) but this week, I am crazy over Wallace Chung (钟汉良) T__T He is another Hong Kong actor and has acted in TVB dramas (which I have no impression at all) but he is so cool and handsome!!!

He is 35 years old. (I think he is the same age is Hawick Lau?) AND HE LOOKS EVEN YOUNGER THAN HAWICK LAU. In my previous post, I commented that Hawick Lau looks really young at his age but now, there is someone younger than him! GOSH. CRAZY. LOL.

In episode 1, he swept me off with his amazing kungfu and decisive character. T__T I am still at episode 24 but guess what? I am so crazy that I went to National Library today to borrow the chinese novel to read. LOL. That's how much I love this show!!! Also, my novel (Sealed With A Kiss) that I recently bought from dangdang.com (China's ebay) is coming in one week time! Too Late To Say I Love You and Sealed With A Kiss are adapted from the same author, Fei Wo Si Cun.

It's so crazily addictive. I actually watched Qin Shi Huang Fei (starring Yan Kuan and Ruby Lin). I was so crazy over Yan Kuan during that period of time too but nothing beats Wallace Chung and Hawick Lau for knowing to speak Cantonese :D HEHE. I like to hear Hong Kong-er speaking Canto... because it's so authentic and soothing to my ears. LOVE HK! hehehehehe.

To update my life... it's less hectic because O-level is finally ending? Wow. I have Physic, Chemistry and Biology P1 but I am totally taking like O-level has ended FML. I had 3 days to study History last week but guess what? I only studied the day before the exam @ NIGHT. So I practically had less than 4 hours to memorise the whole chunk of shit. -_-" I don't know what is wrong with me but that is my character... so I don't think I can take A-level at all LOL. x___x

That day, I accompanied my bro to see our new house and there is this house agent that looks freaking handsome. Like a actor just pop out from the screen. Being me, who is so crazy over dramas nowadays (and handsome guys hehehehe *cheeky face*), I was like telling my sis, "omg, he is so handsome!" LOL. Really really handsome. heeeeee. Ok la, I still love Wallace Chung ok! Hope I still love him after watching this drama. My love for handsome guys end after I finish the drama. awww. I am so fickle-minded.

Anyway, my overseas trips clashes with 1) PROM WHICH I WAITED FOR 4 YEARS IN JURONG SECONDARY 2) a job opportunity to work with my friends!!!

Sad life MAX.

To end this post,

I just wanted to tell everybody to

watch mainland dramas!!! Really!

I love Korean dramas but you have to understand that language to really love that drama, right? Not knowing that language somehow sacrifices that joy~ of watching dramas.

So WATCH IT NOW!!!

2011-11-05T11:56:00.001-07:00

I'm addicted to Qian Shan Mu Xue a.k.a Sealed With A Kiss. I want to start a blog where I can just rumble all day about my love for dramas yes!! =)

2011-11-04T03:42:00.000-07:00

Updates...

1. Have been utterly disappointed with TVB dramas nowadays... so I HAVE TURNED TO MAINLAND DRAMAS! And this experience turned out REALLY GREAT. I know, I always thought mainland dramas sucks and it's so boring but really, if you are watching palace or ancient shows, you gotta watch mainland dramas because they have high production fees so their clothings are really nice compared to TVB. T__T Recently, I watched the trailer for TVB new drama, Curse of Royal Harem. Guess what? Their clothings are really dull and looks like they have been re-used for many times. Sunny Chan is inside and I finally know why I don't like Sunny Chan's acting. Reason: He is always sulking!!! Just notice his mouth. When he does that, he looks like a kid and it is so terribly awful. :-(

2. HOW CAN O-LEVEL SOCIAL STUDIES REPEAT GLOBALISATION FOR THE THIRD TIME?!?!?! I practically wanted to kill myself after seeing the questions because the question (Diplomacy and Deterrence) that came out was so difficult! Moreover, I focused on Governance but... it didn't come out. T___T So I had to write Conflicts in Sri Lanka on spot *sigh* I spent so much time memorising Governance but it didn't come out. Sad life.

3. I am crazy over Sealed With a Kiss. Why can Hawick Lau look so young and handsome despite being 35 years old?!?!

4. I am going to Egypt but I am freaking worried now because my dad just told me there is like some change in political stand in January and I didn't know!!! I booked it in June. Should have checked on Internet before booking to any country. Hope I come back in one piece!!! I want to sit hot air balloon but I scared the hot air balloon will burst or erm... just, fall down. -_-" I want to sit because I saw the pictures in internet and the scenery is gorgeous!

5. I was like telling my father I don't want to study a-level or go to polytechnic anymore. I mean seriously, I hate studying. T__T Okay... I think I said this in a moment of spite.

Anyway, I'm gonna learn piano again hehehe. Think I will be finding a piano teacher soon! :-) BB. I will be back!!!! *dance to 2PM moves*

2011-10-14T04:49:00.000-07:00

It's so ironic that I will miss Jurong Secondary despite hating it for like 4 years hahaha. I bet everyone is the same as me too! I remember crying at the end of my Secondary 2 because I was posted to 4/5 but I guess it was really nice hahaha.

Anyway, 14th October IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! So scary and so... amazing? Like how time flies. LIKE SUPER SUPER FAST!!! So it was super fun with Jessie in class haha. It's so fun sitting beside her like really. She was like saying we should know each other earlier but she sat infront of me in secondary 3 but we just didn't speak together. So I was like the "YC-ON-CRAZY-MODE" today hahaha. Keep laughing and doing stupid things. And Bengkoon and Vyshnavi gave me small letters and it was really touching. I want to write letter but there's no time. maybe I'm gonna write small letters too haha. Thanks Shimin for your highlighter and I will use it hahaha. Speaking to Yihong sometimes is so intellectual and I feel so much inspired after speaking to her. And I have BEEN SO BRAVE AND INITIATIVE for asking consultation time with nearly all my teachers except Mr. Loh... which I am going to ask him on Monday to ask him for one! I am so boomz heheh I know :-)))))

I will miss my secondary school life!

Thoughts about life

2011-09-16T03:54:00.000-07:00

So yesterday, I took Bus 240 and it took a longer time to reach Jurong Point as it passes by the HDB flats and market... but I was fine with it since I saw people doing their daily activities like primary students going back home, acting childish like how I was once... lower secondary students playing basketball in a carefree manner and it got me so emotional about how my painful my life is and got me thinking that:

That is how life should be.

Life is like that.

Life is not all about studying, slogging your life for O-level, right? I mean, THERE IS SOMETHING MORE IMPORTANT THAN STUDYING RIGHT? Life shouldn't be all about studying AND studying or even working. O-level is like a heavy burden on my shoulder. Even when you play, you will feel guilty and that you should go and study as soon as possible. (however, normally after I reach home, I will be so tired that I just sleep and continue to be guilty the next day) WHY MUST LIFE BE LIKE THAT? I hate feeling guilty because I am lazy. I mean my sister is watching her TVB everyday and doesn't even feel guilty for whatever she is doing. I mean watching TVB everything is not right but... I mean we need to have our very own happiness, isn't it? I hate O-levels... :( I have been smiling to myself nowadays because O-level is coming soon... I AM afraid of O-level because I don't think I am well-prepared enough to go for the battle but my desire for my own life override all that.

Anyway, I have been planning for my fantastic, wonderful life after O-level.

I am going to:
#1 Go for baking lessons yeah!
#2 Learn a new language (hokkien or perhaps japanese, french, korean?)
#3 Learn piano or erhu (learn my fave songs!)
#4 HOLIDAYS. (3 days after my last paper, I'm going to Egypt!!! Freaking excited! Going for a shopping trip to Hong Kong on January! #liferocksafterolevel)
#5 Write a long post on my tvb shows... (as well as how overrated laughing gor is that I feel like "Why is life like that?")
#6 Exercise and slim down and get rid of my unwanted fats gained during this year. T__T
#7 Learning cooking???
#8 Go to Universal Studio
#9 Go shopping! Go Forever 21 and look for affordable and pretty clothes!
#10 LEARN MORE THINGS. Improve on my english!

There are so many things I want to learn after O-level. hahaha. Thinking of what I can do after O-level makes me elated. :-))) We should have an aim in life, right?

Can't wait for Prelim and O-level to end. Such a painful moment. Gonna write about my review for Lives of Omission (TVB series 2011) the next time I post. So many things to say especially how overrated laughing gor is... how obnoxious he is to criticise Steven Ma. HELLO? Steven Ma is a good actor compared to Raymond Lam and Ron Ng. Wanted to include Kevin Cheng in the bad actor list but I realised he is improving his acting so ya! And seriously, he is not even fit to compete for TVB king. You know I really like Micheal Tse in one of the old TVB series but now I feel that he is so... arrogant? Read a forum and many feel that he is overrated too.

2011-09-04T10:25:00.000-07:00

I wanna learn this song! heh :) the tune is really nice! Although I don't really like Liu Zi Qian's voice in this song... I feel that it is pretty addicitive because I keep humming to myself lol max.

Anyway I am beginning to suspect my taste because I find

Liu Zi Qian cute!!! I know... T__T but he is really quite cute eh!

Just for your info, I think that Tony Leung is charming. ya ya! I know he is old but he AGE GRACEFULLY. hahaha :P hmm... let me think of some exotic man that I like. err... I think that Liu Zi Qian's father, Liu Jia Chang, is quite "charming" when he sings. errr ya. ok. :S He is not handsome but he sings pretty well. I mean his portfolio is so amazing! He has groomed famous singers like Deng Li Jun, Fei Yu Qing and so much more!!! And I really like to hear old songs because I think the lyrics are more meaningful and the tune is nicer. T____T"" Actually I think I am normal but it is just that Singaporeans just DON'T APPRECIATE HONG KONG AND CHINESE OLD SONGS!!! I like korean songs too but how can everyone go gaga over korean songs and forget their roots? :( *emo* hahaha. ok I am quite crazy now. Anyway Liu Jia Chang's family is quite complicated because Liu Jia Chang's current wife, Zhen Zhen, is Nicholas Tse's father's ex-wife. (ok, let me give you time to digest it hehe)... but Nicholas Tse is not Zhen Zhen's son lah! Anyway you must be wondering, "omg, how do you know all these names. I mean who is ZHEN ZHEN?" Actually, I also don't know one but I have been watching Kang Xi Lai Le nowadays that I'm EMPOWERED with the knowledge lol. x__x

Anyway, I think I am so happy and high that I just forgot to write in proper sentences so pls forgive me and don't think I am some siao gina ok? I'm NORMAL. NORMAL. LOL. :D

2011-08-13T08:18:00.000-07:00

So supposingly, I shouldn't have gone for the dry run today. It was quite horrible. I was supposed to partner someone and then maybe we didn't practice it before or the situation was so chaotic, my partner pangseh me. T___T And I was the only one without a partner so I was wandering around the stage when everyone was dancing. Like freaking paiseh and I really wanted to die but I don't know why I just keep smiling. My eyes was idk, moisted?

So ya. Nvm:-))) Life goes on!! So tired. wanna sleep le. 3 hours of tuition on saturday kills me haha. bb. muackz.

2011-08-10T00:34:00.000-07:00

The yacht trip was fun... but I got sunburnt!!! So fucking horrible :-( The feeling is like you just got a bruise? My skin on my forehead is peeling now... and there is a raw skin now so I hope it won't leave any discoloured scar hahaha. And the yacht is so pretty and I totally felt like a rich girl when I was in there HAHA. *flick hair*

Yesterday was National Day so my family actually went on a search for my new table! The table is actually for kids one lah but no choice, bo bian hahaha. Quite nice though. :-))) My father want me to get 8 As but I don't even know if I can get 4 As now... shit my life. hahaha.

Some photos to add colours to my blog.

每天这么轻松就好了：）

2011-08-05T05:00:00.000-07:00

Today was a fun day hahaha :-)))

So apparently, I went dancing during recess because Jun Wen is teaching from the start of the song!!! YEAH! :D and he was really patient yeah hehe. Also, there were like people who don't have any dancing background lah... but anyway, they dance better than me. BUT NVM! TAKE IT. I think I am freaking stiff and YOU THINK DANCING IS EASY RIGHT? NO OK!!!!!!! I mean when you see people dance some steps, you will think it is natural instinct but it's not.

Then I went home with 154 and the bus was packed like sardine so I was like -_-/// and O_O... too stunned for words hahahahaha.

Anyway I was super high after dancing and started speaking loudly and not being my quiet self yunno. So I guess it is quite fun to be high sometimes and I hope I get high everyday!!! anyway I can't stand someone but I still have to bear with her because BO BIAN and NO CHOICE... but anyway, I only have to see her for a few more months then bye bye liao lor!!! How can someone be so idiotic and no sense of "patriotic" for your friend you tell me?! Like wtf can. Like freaking idiot. I don't know if I am the only one but I think all humans are like that so you gotta build up yourself and make yourself valuable so NO ONE CAN TREAT YOU BADLY!!! okay I am so agitated now LOL. ok relax.

Tomorrow is Saturday and 6 August marks my first time taking a yacht!!! So excited la although X is going cause I gave in. I am such a nice sis right but she didn't even thank me??? Can't be bothered with them. Gonna bring my DSLR to take chio chio photos ok? hahaha.

I love being happy. Today is kind of a happy day. Hope everyday is like that too haha :-)))))

2011-08-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

So anyway my sis has been making a big hoo ha over something. So I have to bring someone for that something. Like don't have x, life will be meaningless like that! I mean anyway, dear yy, if you are reading my blog when you are not supposed to, I mean like seriously?!

Anyway nearly 3/4 of the class are dancing but... I feel
that I dance pretty shitty aww:(

2011-07-29T08:14:00.000-07:00

学会放开，负担便不是那么重；
从前的我，可能会故意去强求；
但现在的我，虽然依依不舍可是在试着放开；
很难，很辛苦，但又不快乐，又要去争取，又何必呢？

试着放开怀抱，可能会有另外的收获，非一般的风味。

Supposed to go somewhere interesting. I really want to go but I'm learning to let go. Why attempt to force? There will be other chances im sure. I have grown so I must learn that some things are like that. If it's not yours then it's not yours.

2011-07-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

Preparing for Teachers' Day dance... I'm a dance noob and don't get why 80% of our class can dance so well while I dance like... err, shit.

3 more months to o-level... I can't hide my excitement heh. so many things to do after o-level! I'm sure all of us are the same. ;-) but so many things to memorise. nuts! getting back chinese o-level results in 2 more weeks........ I really want to get back my results asap so I can prepare early if I don't get my desired grade... hopefully I can? I just want to do it once, so freaking tiring. Life goes on! Happy dancing everyone!

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2011-07-25T07:46:00.001-07:00

Life gets better.......:-)

I don't know why X can do such things. 3 more months. Hang on! :-))))

2011-07-22T06:48:00.000-07:00

Just bought this deal from deal.com.sg... to Hong Kong and a free trip to Shanghai. Excluding airplane ticket but still, it's so cheap and worth lor HEH. Somemore go Disneyland still got discount leh. You tell me good anot! HAHA. *shake butt* Hope this deal is not gonna cheat on me and give me a lousy hotel :S

Package includes:

2 Nights’ Stay @ Rambler Garden Hotel or similar
Return Airport Transfer
Optional Half Day City Tour ( Bauhinia Square, Victoria Peak (Mid-Level), Aberdeen Fishing Village, Repulse Bay, Jewel Shop & Ginseng Shop)
Free ONE Of The Following Tours (Valid For 1 Year From The Redemption Date):
- 5-Day Beijing Relaxing Tour (itinerary) OR
- 8-Day Charming Shanghai Tour (itinerary) OR
- 5-Day Macau & Zhuhai (itinerary)
Special Discounts For Disneyland/Ocean Park/Macau Day Tour (Optional):
- One Day Macau Tour Including One Way Ferry Ticket To Macau – SGD30 instead of SGD130
- Ocean Park + Entrance Ticket SGD 30 Instead Of SGD 80
- Disneyland + Entrance Ticket Sgd 50 Per Adult (Usual Price SGD 110)/SGD 40 Per Child(Usual Price SGD 100)

2011-07-17T07:22:00.000-07:00

Idk ys ytd said some things to me about this person. I don't know if I shld SMS her anot because it's freaking $#%^&$&$ because I see her like everyday from Mon to Sat... morning and sometimes afternoon. But after she said, I realised there was problems with us all along like you-and-me and not me-about-you. sigh. do yunno my feeling?

2011-07-13T03:09:00.000-07:00

Got such bad results that I feel like banging my head against the wall. I know I didn't study but wtf, why some people never study still can get better than me. T__T""" And the fact that my class and those genius (seriously, how can you get so many A1***?? Like 80 marks and above) isn't helping me okay. *tear*

Ah I don't know. Just move on??????

Bought a new spec and it's arriving this Saturday. But I regretted buying it because it's like those big spec. I mean I think it is okay and look nice if I wear to Jurong Point to shop or eat but NOT OKAY when I go to school... :-((((( I think I wanna make another pair now. *bang head* Stupid yc!! Might be wearing to school now because I can't see the whiteboard. I can see but I must strain my eyes, so freaking tiring. Hope my mother will let me do another spec sia but I think she want me to pay myself this time. =(

My left ear hurts, there is too much ear wax. Putting this oil in my left ear to soften the wax so I can remove it??? I don't know why my ear always have so much ear wax in it. I mean throughout my life, I have done it thrice le!! My mother haven't even done it once. kk. hai hai.

And I can't believe my ss/hist and maths are failing me. hai hai hai hai. My LIFE.

2011-07-09T09:37:00.000-07:00

Ok I did something pretty horrible.

I accidentally added this person to this Facebook group FML. T___T I hope he doesn't get any notification or what sia wtf. I scared I 害 her. T___T"""

2011-07-09T01:13:00.000-07:00

Heheheheh :-))

I have a new Acer laptop and it is ultra thin, making it suitable for travelling. So I have 2 computers now and I think my new computer is so fast that I couldn't believe it. Mainly because my VAIO laptop is on the verge of err... dying.

In conclusion, I have 2 laptop now and this make me very dua pai. I also have 2 handphone now because I have this mobile SIM card (which have internet) but I think it is ridiculous to bring 2 handphone out, right??? So I just take out my SIM card (used to make calls and SMS) and insert the new SIM card (which has internet)... so if you can't reach me, it is either my handphone has no battery or I took out my SIM card to use internet heh.

And that makes me what? Yc da dua pai!!!

*flex muscles*

*ribcage raises upwards*

Friday was a hectic day... with many things happening to me. My mundane life suddenly felt like a roller coaster. Enjoyed going home with Evelyn, Weiling and Simin because it has been a long time since we did that. Whatsmore, I was on my YC-lame-mode and started talking shit and laughing to myself. And I think I have to accept that fact that I can't say jokes at all. *face palm* Time flies and we are going to graduate from Jurong Secondary in 3 months. Cheers! :-)))

2011-07-06T02:55:00.000-07:00

So yesterday was my Chinese O-level oral. I thought that I could say more but I guess I was too nervous. :(

Anyway, today this person (let's call her nugget) was a horrible person. I mean I thought she was OKAY but it turns out she is not only NOT okay but horrible, terrible, vegetable. T___T Nugget told me something during secondary 3 and I was pretty omg over it because Nugget said her friend to be competitive and will not explain questions to her so I was like okay... so it turns out that today she is BOOMZ. Treating me like what, spare tyre huh wtf max.

I will get it over soon. Need to release my anger.

As of now, GE1 has unofficially "ended" so I am pretty glad because I didn't revise for GE1 during the holidays. And if you are me, you will feel that HOW AM I GOING TO REVISE 2 YEARS OF WORK IN 1 DAY? I am a last minute chionger but I think I am old now and 2 years of work is just way too tedious. So in the end, I gave up hope on my GE1... T___T""" So I didn't revise for any physics work except for the formulas. ahhh, my life!

Just can't wait for O-level to get over and get a new environment. I need to be more optimistic too because I feel like I am so passive nowadays. I know I am still quite passive nowadays but I am "getting better". yeaaah.
3 more months to O-level and I hope I will buck up yeaah. Hope teachers can give me remedial on chemistry and physics and a-maths.

2011-07-05T19:02:00.001-07:00

Ok fine. I dunno why how suay x10000 max am I. It's suay dao like sai. What the sai.

2011-06-30T08:15:00.001-07:00

You know what?

When I grow up, I want to rent or buy a house and live on my own. Or maybe with a friend. Like those tvb shows. This is the first time I've thought of getting my own house and i hope it will come true. :-) can't stand the look of them so f off ok haha.

Anyway i'm still reading my notes and haven't even start memorising so dead yeah.

Life goes on. Just do it! :-)))

2011-06-27T10:46:00.001-07:00

Revising History is such a waste of time... writing my notes and I think I shall stop my hist now and go and do my maths or something like that yeah.

Wasted my life ouch.

2011-06-27T05:25:00.001-07:00

Days will get bettttteeeerr!!! I hate this feeling. :-( the heart feeling empty and all that. Today was okay, really. (except for some things but I forgot that xx is like that one argh) There's so much thing to say. And I have been laughing non-stop like an idiot nowadays so I think I should stop laughing like an idiot right. So paiseh when I look around and see I am the only person laughing like siao and booomzzzZZZ. LOL. yeah. :-)

Have been applying this cream on my face nowadays and the pimples (??) on my head are disappearing but there are still some on the side of my face. Haha not bad leh.

Anyway, I have been eating like a pig nowadays. I ate fried beehoon in the middle of the night for 3 days straight. My fried beehoon consist of fried chicken wing, egg and luncheon meat. omg right, I know! Sometimes, my sister and I will order more if we are sharing a plate. For example, we will add hashbrown and so on. So pig sia. Anyway, school has reopen and such supper will not happen anymore. Haha.

// Contemplating to whether to go school tomorrow for consultation :O?

LIFE WILL GET BETTER, RIGHT?!!! :-)))))))

2011-06-24T09:22:00.000-07:00

What can I say about my mother?

She speaks whatever she likes, without thinking about anybody and that being selfish is alright. The world is hers.

I hope olvl can end soon haha.

2011-06-24T06:18:00.000-07:00

Feel like dying now!!!

I DIDN'T DO A SINGLE FUCKING HW DURING THE HOLIDAYS EXCEPT THAT I WROTE SOME SS AND HISTORY NOTES????

I know this is SO de javu (whatever u spell it) BUT BUT THIS TIME IT IS GE1 = O-LVL.

Mama de I feel like dying now and my heart is beating so fast!!! Sibei kanjiong cause I know I am dying but it won't be too late if I start 3 months before o-level rightttttt?!?!?! Tell me it's ok plsss!!!! I'm gonna chiong now and i hope i can make it for GE1!!! At least don't make me drop so much plss.ah shitzz. Why am I always like that?

Btw, I know I am always like that but this year is sec 4 so I should stop being so lazy mama de T___T. OLVL. I MUST MAKE IT OMG.

I am gonna chiong my am now byebye. and I freaking hate those ppl who say they have no time to study but actually, they have studied alot alr!! i know it's my fault and my wrong and i'm just jealous and guilty for not studying so i'm angry with them but haizz! anyway i'm not angry with them but ANGRY WITH MYSELF. T___T

BB. PLS HOPE I WILL STUDY AND STOP SLACKING OR DAYDREAM.

XOXO.

I wish

2011-06-23T04:25:00.000-07:00

1. Life was easier.
2. Days get better.
3. There is hope.
4. No imperfection, no depression.

If only life is better. :-)

2011-06-22T09:38:00.000-07:00

Laughed my ass off watching Kang Xi Lai Le :D

I like Huang Guo Lun alot omg T__T so funny and the way he speaks is so funnneyyy

Anyway,

I have been spending my holidays with my sis and I have a love-hate relationship with her.

Internet is back, xoxo.

2011-06-18T07:52:00.001-07:00

I hate them and ironically, I'm laughing hahahaha.

I wish I can hurt them back twice as hard.

2011-06-13T02:53:00.001-07:00

HI.

Playing with Junjun is not easy and he doesn't like me. so sad. he likes to take photos though. shall post him one day. he is super cute and his skin is like tofu liddat hahahaha :p

Life has been the same for me and life rockz w/o sch! :-)))) I love to stay at home haha. kkkk. And shopping. yeah. There's like some things on my face and I am so freak out now because god knows what is it argh.

And Evelyn my study buddy is so hardworking to core while I'm failing max.

Finally downloaded Yoga Lin, Khalil Fong and Liang Wen Yin's new albums. Yeah ;-)))

2011-05-22T18:11:00.001-07:00

Life goes on.

4 more times. Anyway I think I shld just concentrate on my studies and stop playing. I mean even without Internet, I'm still not studying. Scary much? :-(

printed many of my photos including cambodia, India, korea 2009, korea 2010 and those with friends :-)) think I spent more than $400 on the photos and albums. I'm still ok compared to my sis! She printed a total of 3000+ photos no jk lol. I'm so glad that there is Internet in Newton room nw:-) make me feel much better. Ohya, and it sucks to see a person every single day and time because you almost have the same timetable as her.

Career fair tmr but chemistry spa
is the day after it! Nv study during the weekends so I guess ya know haha.

2011-05-21T07:09:00.001-07:00

I don't know if I shld apply through dsa for jc. Cos after deciding that I'm gonna aim for jc, I feel that I can't handle the pressure and gp.

Life without Internet is horrible. Like a drug addict without drug yunno?

2011-04-24T02:26:00.000-07:00

Do You Hear My Heart?

The drama features the love story between Dong-joo (Kim Jae-won) and Woo-ri (Hwang Jung-eum), a deaf man who pretends he can hear and a plucky daughter pretending to be dumb to spare the feelings of her dim-witted father (Jung Bo-seok, who’s always great, whether he’s being frighteningly evil like in Giant or funny like in High Kick Through the Roof).

Dong-joo has so much layers in his character. wtf wtf. Anyway I should stop my gaga over guys because my bro keeps saying that I shld continue dreaming for Korean guys cos they will nv like me back. -_-/// T_T/// Ya I know he's right. T___T!!!!! my obsession just can't stop argh :-S

The irony...

2011-04-21T22:29:00.000-07:00

...is that life gets better after A SLEEP. :-))))

Watched midnight movie called A Chinese Ghost Story last night! Starring Louis Koo and Liu Yifei, this movie is a part of Pu Songling novel which I pretty like it. Went to eat HK Cafe and saw Ms Yong and Mr Ooi and WTF I was sitting FACE TO FACE to Ms Yong. Just imagine my horror -_-////

I love my DSLR omg. Currently, I'm arranging my photos... to print them and I think I have thousands of them! I am thinking of printing not only my overseas pics but also those photos w/ my friends! Perhaps I am gonna arrange overseas pics now and arrange photos w/ my friends after 'O' level! I'm going crazy with e amount of photos I have *shake head vigorously*

:-))))

Smile! Life gonna get better yo!

2011-04-21T04:00:00.001-07:00

I TOLD U LAO NIANG IS NOT IN A GOOD MOOD BECAUSE FUCKING MANY THINGS HAPPENED TODAY AND MADE ME FEEL THAT MY LIFE WAS A SHIT.

THAT I WAS LIKE A USELESS PERSON WHO JUST LIKES TO HIDE IN A CORNER, AND HAVE NO EMOTION. AND DO NOT NEED ANY RESPECT FROM ANYBODY FUCKING PERSON.

SO FUCK U. I TOLERATED U AND WENT OUTSIDE TO EAT. WANTING TO SEEK CONSOLATION FROM TVB N MY FAV TV BUT ALL U DO WAS FUCKING SAY SAY SAY SAY SAY ME.

DO U KNOW I HAD SYF? DO U KNOW HOW IMPT WAS ME TO HAV A GOLD? BECAUSE I BLOODY USED 4 YRS IN CO, PLAYING, PLAYING, PLAYING AND NO RECOGNITION WAS GIVEN.

ONLY A GOLD.

For 4 bloody years, we have been slogging our life and WHY GIVE US SUCH DISAPPOINTMENT AGAIN? WHY?

WTF N U DON'T EVEN KNOW A SINGLE BLOODY THING ABOUT ME. FUCK U.

And I don't know why how many bad things can happen to me at a go. A day can either happen w/ all the nice things or all the bad things. Why? I feel fucking damn it. I'M UR FRIEND? Idk but today so many people treated me like wtf and I FEEL WTF.

IDK. IDK. I FUCKING HATE THIS FEELING.

2011-04-20T06:36:00.000-07:00

CO is over.... and tomorrow is the result day... I really wanna get a gold. For all the effort we have put in, not for 2 years, but for 4 years. RV was great and looking at them made me realised that we might not get a gold afterall :-( Idk but let's hope we can get a gold xoxo.

And the fact that CO is over gives me a sense of relief. Because I no longer have to stay until 6 everyday. And for the past few days, I reached home at around 7+ which is crazy.

I WAN A GOLD.

It probably gonna hurt if the result says that it's not a gold. I was so sure that we will get a gold last night but not now. IDK =( sigh.

Anyway I am addicted to this new takoyaki at JP and it is a expensive obsession =( $3.60 for just 4 takoyaki balls!

Childhood 童年…

2011-04-17T07:13:00.000-07:00

I was so amazed when I saw my childhood photos haha... My sis keep telling me to take a "proper" photo because all of us will grow old and it is important to take photo of that special moment. So I think I wanna take a family photo at a studio after my 'O' level!!! :-))))

I think I look so much better when I was young hahaha.... kk. There's school tomorrow! 2 more days 2 SYF. So excited! Quite worried that I will have to skip my ASAP on Monday and Tuesday.... also skipping school on Wednesday due to SYF. argh xzxzxz. Hope I won't miss out on too many things...

2011-04-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

On Friday, I had a conversation speech infront of the whole class. At that moment, I practically wanted to die because... my script is w/ Sankaar. So I had a spontaneous talk with teacher and it ended up like shit. Hai. My leg was trembling at that point of time. T___T""""

Ok. Anyway, today the tuition was all about politics. Can you just believe the teachers there are badmouthing one another? Lol max kk. hahah.

3 more days to SYF! GOLD. (last week, I was so tired and sick of going to co... but I'm ok nw) So today, Mr. Wong switched off the light suddenly and I felt so so so touched suddenly. I mean for last week, I hated SCHOOL and CO so much that the urge to pon school on Friday was overwhelming me haha.

I feel that the journey to O-level is so tough and tiring. It's really a marathon, a long long long journey. jiayou jiayou.

2011-04-12T05:46:00.001-07:00

NVM, forget it. It's not the first time anyway.

2011-04-10T07:38:00.001-07:00

Light travels faster than sound.

This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

LOL max.

2011-04-09T22:37:00.000-07:00

什么是幸福，什么是快乐？

Studying is a pain.

2011-04-08T10:55:00.000-07:00

Cool blogskin hah.

Trying to solve some technical issues. Oh, I am so rusty in blogskin-ing now aw. CO tomorrow. 11 more days to SYF. Hope we can get a gold.

Also, pray that I can find back my Erhu!!! My god, some doesn't even reply? HALLO LIKE WTF. I'm gonna tell teacher like next Tuesday if I still don't get it. U asshole who took my erhu. Reply my SMS.

Just so you know...

2011-04-07T07:12:00.000-07:00

#NOTE 1

CT2 is "officially over" lol. I think I am messing up with my life because I can't EVEN COMPLETE MY CHEM AND PHYSIC PAPER. I lost 12 marks for physic paper omg??? I mean like last time, no matter how FAIL MAX my chem/physic was, I can still finish the paper and still do the question (even if it is wrong... but at least it proves that I understand a thing or two?) Okay, the reason behind is because I have been SUPER SUPER lazy nowadays. At least I used to do my homework but I don't do now. So I'm here slacking yaaa. I know T___T"""

Ah prelim in another 3 weeks??????? Can I just study and finish my E-maths homework which consists of the whole secondary 3 revision topics and many more. I haven't even touch it when Shimin finished like... 5 chapters already. She is so hardworking and I feel so ashamed that despite sitting beside her, I still can't study. btw, my study includes doing homework. So I hardly ever revise my things except the day before that certain subject. Hai. I just can't bring myself to study.

#NOTE 2

Reason why I am not studying because other than TVB, I am immersing myself under the love of Cheena shows. And cheena shows consist of melodramas and hmmmm....... LOVE where I can die for u. hahahaha :P I don't mind watch TV 24/7 for the rest of my life and don't find it boring at all. My house is made up of tv addicts and I am the queen per say. I wanna watch old shows by Ady An and Ariel Lin (with Hu Ge).

YC = fail max in her attempt to study hard

#NOTE 3

I bathed Baby a month ago after hesitating for 4 months. I always thought that if I washed her with water, she will not be so "huggable" anymore but it turns out okay =) Originally, I wanted to dry-wash her and it cost a whopping $15+.

#NOTE 4

Today was HORRIBLE MAX MAX!!! I didn't eat from 7a.m. to 6p.m. (excluding the koko krunch I ate at 10.45a.m. because that didn't even fill 1/10 of my stomach). GOSH??? I nearly died literally.

After reaching JP, my stomach was in pain and felt as if I got "electrocuted". I don't know how to express those pain :-( I think is gastric pain? So as usual, I went to Old Chang Kee to quell my hunger.

#NOTE 6

I like Feng Shaofeng in Four Women Conflict! :-S

2011-04-05T07:27:00.000-07:00

:-(

So many things. :-( What's holding me back. I really should stand firm and stop talking. The result is always the same, she is always like that. Leopard never change its spot. Sometime, I think, u think u love someone alot, but in fact, u don't know how to love because u don't spare a thought. u don't put urself in ppl's shoes. hai hai. Life suckzzz max x infinity.

Anyway I found a blog who watches 90% same show as me!!! I know I know hahaha. And she changes her movie/tv lover like the same speed as mine lol max :-)))))

My my. Anyway I am currently like gaga over this guy called Feng Shaofeng. I like the role he play in shows (as usual). so ya haha. Watching some cheena melodrama.

From what I can rmb, I have watched the following cheena melodrama...

1) Da Ya Huan - starring Ron Ng and Chen Sicheng.

2) 宫 - starring Feng Shaofeng! Received pretty good ratings in China. :-)

3) 锁清秋 - starring Ady An and Feng Shaofeng.

And the plot is always the same but it always work for me. hahaha. OK JIA YOU JIA YOU! I am feeling better. Ok my recent posts are so emo kkkk. Will try to post happier stuff but I just realised, only TV makes me feel happy. sad life rite. ok no la, shopping also haha wtf. ok bb. JY!!! :-))))))

2011-04-05T06:42:00.000-07:00

(男)你的泪满天飞舞
我在踌躇该不该停下脚步
怕你义无反顾
爱的太辛苦
从来不给自己留一点退路

(女)我不怕辛苦只怕留不住
你掌心残留的温度
如果天要我背负
一辈子都孤独
我只想你抱着我哭

(男)抱着你哭抱着你朝朝暮暮
(合)哪怕一开始就万劫不复
(男)爱得太无助连幸福也是个错误
(女)因为一开始就无法结束(男)无法结束
(女)我绝不退出

My regret

2011-04-05T05:34:00.000-07:00

My regret - something i did that changed my life. and i'm stuck w a selfish bitch who doesn't use her brain to think and speak whatever she likes without thinking. she is a bitch. a selfish bitch.

SS and hist CT2 tmr.

Jurong Island tmr.

Life goes on. Life goes on. Hang on.

2011-04-01T23:04:00.000-07:00

Life goes on.

Don't care about the fucking idiot who is useless. He is just a childish kid who doesn't know where he stands and think he is such a big deal. Fu.

2011-03-26T04:21:00.001-07:00

Life just goes on.

sigh.

Hope u enjoy ur day and my waist increases at the rate I'm eating but I don't care cos I luv food.

So tired =( =( Slept throughout the day and missed my tuition for chem. gonna have a makeup on weekday I guess. hai hai.

U really freak me out. Ok I wanna get a polaroid badly. AND it's not because of following the trend etc. Bukit Batok has a camera shop and I wanted it since P4. I wanna get the mickey mouse and hello kitty one. So cute. T__T Anyway my sis and I were shopping online tgt @ gmarket. sister bonding u see. ok la bb. Life sucks. jyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjy!!!

At da house

2011-03-18T06:09:00.000-07:00

YS is gonna eat me.

Ok fail max haha.

Trying out crippledadjustment's signature smile. Success finally! ;-)

Had to keep telling YS to smile naturally.

Sunglasses from Cambodia... :-)

Love this pic of mine hah.

Life might be okay today but THERE'S A SHIT LOAD OF HW!!!

2011-03-17T08:10:00.000-07:00

Ok today I'm gonna start my post with the topic of

INTEGRITY.

Firstly, if U pon UR CCA, don't put as VR and not O. You tell me what world is this world coming toooo?? *SIGH

Life sucks man. Tomorrow got CCA again. Cancel Wednesday, add Friday hahahaha. :-)))))

Anyway, let's move on to happier things... ok I just realised there is nothing happy to say about today. Except that I keep asking my mother whether I am cute.

Me: Mummy, am I cute.
Mum: You were cute when you were young
Me: Now leh?
Mum: You say leh? Naughty lah.

LOL. Ok u must be very curious on why I asked my mother whether I am cute. U see, I am quite siao ding dong nowadays so I ask stupid questions. LOLZZZ.

OK BB!!!! :-))))

2011-03-16T05:41:00.003-07:00

Hm... What happened to Lee Minho's face???

MV MV

2011-03-14T22:52:00.000-07:00

Sick on the last few days. Kept going to the toilet every minute. I literally had to sit near the toilet when we went to Lotte World :-( Sis took a picture of my kelian face while taking hot water. ouch.

Ok stop looking at my fat thigh. I was wearing 2 long john pants LOL.

Asked the ahjumma who trimmed hair for my sis to take a photo with me using hand sign and she was so cute can. She was reluctant and shy at first :$ :$ but after that, she went to take her lipstick out and applied it on her lips LOL. So cute :D

I know I look old my gosh. Everybody said I was older than my sis :-( FYI: She is older than me by 6 yrs FML FML. T____T"""

Last but not least

the main reason for this post is because I made a video! heh :-) I'm always uploading Korea pic and not India or Cambodia mainly because of the beautiful scenery and my DSLR can take nice pic heh!!! Love my DSLR.

2011-03-13T18:56:00.001-07:00

Wangsu nv come. Waste my time. :-(

2011-03-13T06:29:00.000-07:00

So tired :-(

Having slight flu and feeling wobbly....... Had Crystal Jade @ Holland followed by Haagen Daaz (whatever u spell it). I like food but I have to admit I am getting fat fml. Can't fit in my shorts nw. I am not joking. T___T U know this day will come when you keep eating and don't exercise. hai.

C.O. tmr. How I wish there is no CCA. So many hw. Hope I have a better day tmr.

Told my dad to give me his touch screen blackberry because he always gives his old phone to his worker. Since sec 1, I have been telling him to give me his old phone but he always don't give me one. Finally convinced him this time haha. Okay I have to tell u something damn touching. The other day I was pestering him to give me his old phone and guess what he said? "Why u want my old things. U want then I buy for u new one." okay something like that. hahahaha. He can be really strict sometimes too.

So today was a tiring day and I am gonna attend Chemistry tuition at Stalford haha. Someone told me it's not good but I am just gonna try. Too lazy to go to other tuition place where I might need to take bus etc. I am freaking lazy. Moving house after O-level. After that, I am not going to move house anymore. phew :-) And that place is so cool. At Buona Vista. And my dad keep telling me that the NTU Alumni is so near so it's very convenient. He said ACJC very near so I can go there. "Is ACJC good?" I remained silent because u don't wanna tell him it's a good school and give him hopes. So ya. Let him see my report book and he still say next time I don't do well no pocket money, must use my savings fml. ok la, think he is joking. so ya.

Ok let me write long since I am so sad =( My back is aching and I hate having flu. flu -> sad -> unhappy -> lie on bed and slack

Yesterday, I read an article about twins from Reader's Digest. It's really interesting and makes you wonder how amazing twins can have such strong bonds with one another. The story is about how two orphans, separated at birth, are reunited. Coincidentally, their adopted parents gave them the same name. And how they tilt their head when they take photo... when they saw each other for the first time, they just held each others hand and felt like that they had seen one another before... Really touching. :-)

The world is ending soon, I suppose. Let it end before O-level ok? It's killing me =( Life is a suffering. I was telling my mum to kill me. Or ask someone to give me like 10 million - wait, 100 million, 10 million not enough lol - so that I can travel around the world and enjoy life. tan sai gai in Cantonese.

xoxo. Life gonna get better.

2011-03-11T16:24:00.000-08:00

Nw waiting for the mr Sam who is always late without fail. Tmd the weather tday is so cooling and I had a hard time waking up. And nw he is late again? Sianzzz max :-(

ytd was teacher n parent meeting day. They took a long time before they gave us our report book. K must improve on my sciences n em...... He's still late.

2011-03-10T04:32:00.000-08:00

Yeah my sister is coming back today hahaha. Told her to buy my fave mooncake from HK. You know the mooncake that has a box blue in colour with a moon? Hmm... I like it heh :-) So anyway, she said she tried her best to buy for me and I hope she really got buy things for me lor.

SW test tomorrow but no mood. Differentiation test on Saturday =( =(

oh ya. My CIP points are only 40hrs!!! omg???

2011-03-09T04:27:00.000-08:00

Recently, there is no C.O. on Wednesday. (I know we always skip C.O. on Wed but the feeling is different. Like you have a 重生的机会) Ji tao shuang dao~

Then, I came home to watch tv and slept after laughing at Weiling when she told me she wants to sleep. I was pretty determined to stop sleeping sia but fail max u see. hahaha. Today is a hot day. Anyway, tomorrow is like the best day ever mainly because 1) CME HAHA. Muack! 2) There's like no Chem tmr...? I've got this big fear for Chem. Extremely stress.

By the way, I think there is a rehearsal for Speech Day. Say WTF with me. So ASAP was canceled. I know I hate chem but I think my Thursday will be spent much more meaningfully on studies rather than standing near the aisle, waiting for our turn to perform. Ok I go eat dinner bb.